Tuesday, 18 September 2007
Reflections before promo
Ok...this could be my last post before i started blogging again after promo. Just wanted to share how i feel so far while preparing for promo.
All along, i have been failing my test including my maths. I don't know what happened, just that i studied so hard for it and yet i failed. And seeing my friends improve motivated me to study harder, and yet i failed again, this time worse. I can tell my teachers are disappointed with me, even Ms Lim began asking me whether i understand certain things or not. Oh well...what the hell happened? And yet people called me smart even though i have been failing my test? Just because i am no 1 for mid-year doesn't mean i am smart. Recently i got a 0 for one of the exercise (luckily not a test), does it bode well for my promo? I don't think so you know.
My piano exam is today...just hope i will get distinction to make up what i have failed in school. At least although i may have failed now, i know what i am supposed to do to improve myself. That, at least can save me for my A level.
The first thing i learnt and the most important thing is to be humble no matter how good you are. Learnt from people even though they are weaker than you. I guess i cannot be independent in JC now...which i hate but must adapt. The thing is i prefer not to ask people because first, i am not sure if they cn give me what i wanted to hear, second, i am the type: Lone wolf. I guess i got to change that.
The second thing i learnt is that one has to be organised in JC. I am not...so i missed out some files here and there. I even forget what we are going to do for next week class. My bag is heavy because i just stuff in most things inside. Plus, i even miss out notes which i didn't even know...Haizz i guess i need Nadine to help me get all the soft copy for everything and i need to rename all the files so i can locate the topics easier. And i will listen to her by getting a good notebook which i will buy today.
The final thing i have learnt in to be consistent and efficient. I don't think i am efficient enough because most of the time i am studying and don't have time for people, even though i like them as a friend or more than that. I also need to be consistent so that i can sleep better. I talked to people about my falling grades and almost all pointed to my lack of sleep. Everyday, with only less than 3 hours of sleep, and yet never sleep during tutorial and lecture, it was a miracle man. I thought i am a superman or something but then i affected all my small tests.
I better spent my 2 months of holiday fruitfully to improve
1. Humility
2. Organisation
3. Consistency
3. Efficiency
Good luck everybody for your promo especially 0716, i wish to see all of you in J2. Bye and ...(mugging)
posted at [05:54]
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Wednesday, 5 September 2007
Study, sleep, study sleep + unhappy things
If anyone calls me no life, it is wrong, I am now like a machine doing monotonous things. Not only that, my parents quarelled with my relatives on the phone and due to their nature of anger, i got scolded as well. I guess that's the reason why i tell my deepest and darkest secret to someone although i don't know that person very well. -_-...quite regretted to tell that person.
And today, i have many phone calls. Some are looking for Ms lim while others wanted to look for comics in the libray. PLEASE! It's promos. You still have the time to read comics? And i am not in a very good mood today but luckily no one saw it. My parents are like a stone la...don't even talk to each other or me right now. LIke they are very sad or what i don't know, nor do i dare to ask. I think it is because of that i feel sad. It may be weird. We are not like very close to each other but everytime someone close to me feel sad, i feel it to and experience it myself... Like there is a connection or something like that...
How to put it? Like today i can even hardly smile although i tried to do it. Even when i am with the people i know who like to laugh, i can't even smile today. And i feel tired. Time to drink chicken essence + more coffee + slapping in the face to get away from my confort zone. Today i went to pizza hut and it was supposed to let me know more people from flag CCA, but then i just ignore them today. Really sorry to the people who have this intention.
Just hope i don't do impulsive things when i am at these conditions. I did one already and that's my deepest and darkest secret. Sooner or later i think i will do worse. Guess i will isolate myself for the time being. Oh and...i am contagious by the way. Don't get near me or else you will be sick.
Study hard for your promos. Good luck everyone!
posted at [19:03]
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Teachers Day and yellow ribbon walk.
The Teacher's day celebration in NYJC is not that much different from secondary schools in terms of excitement. The thing is, it is pretty screwed due to the wet weather. No clear instructions are given to bring a mat and everyone ends up having to sit on the wet track. I was not paying attention to the skit because i don't really get what they want to show. The music is ok but the singer...ought to be changed for a better one.
Went back to Maris Stella. Oh my gosh the vending machine has changed to all hundred plus. Reason: Healthier choice. Oh man...no more coke or any other soft drinks that i carve for. Milo is the alternative luckily. But after that you can see rows and rows of hundred plus. I can even show you the photo in my handphone if you want to see. Crap with my secondary school friends before i went back home and slept like a pig
Yellow ribbon walk:
Argghh....the walk. First we got to wait like 1 hour doing NOTHING except more crapping. Even when we started walking, there are so many people that we are walking like a turtle. While i walk, i talk tze kai about our shirt. Yeah i finally understand his position. First: Majority of the class agreed to wear class t-shirt on thursday. Second: A last minute change can make a confusion. But i don't know how tze kai put it across to nadine until she hate him so much. But if i am in tze kai position, i think i would be doing the same thing as him.
And i didn't manage to walk into the prison damn it. What if i land in the prison one day? How am i going to get used to the environment? Oh man. I hate it when it is so crowded + i got stepped by some guy. And i never wear shoes...I should have learnt my lesson when i was stepped twice the last time...
Went to have lunch with the ribbon walkers (our class of course) then went back to school to study. But then my flu just got worse due to the drastic changes in weather (1 min it is sunny while 1 min later it is raining). So i go home and here am i just woke up. Ok i am not going to sleep until i finish what i am supposed to do for today.
Ok go back studying
posted at [20:40]
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Erwin = Playboy?
O man i am not that bad once you got to know me...Now i have been reading people's blog during my resting time and here's what i got
1. Oh...imagine erwin reading this blog
2. Hahahaha i thought you should marry erwin
3. Oh i don't know you feel that way about erwin........(I won't continue but is is regarding externalities)
And plus some extra sauce and salt + pepper. I mean...OHMYGOSH! When did i become a playboy? + i got myself a free matchmaker -_-... come on man you're not that free especially when promo is coming right? + i may have to mask my face before it turns into a tomato sooner or later because of all these rumours...OHMYGOSH!!!!
But to look at it in a good side, it is nice to distress this way BUT don't go overboard. I mean...WHO STARTED THIS BLOODY RUMOUR??? Argghhh....ANyway thanks for helping me to distress. This week i got a pretty bad result cos maybe i slack or in a brain damaged condition...or maybe i should be about this kind of standard. So don't be like oh-the-no-1-erwin-in-the-class-is-so-great. Ah pui...it could be i am lucky for the previous tests...haha and when did i ever admit i am smart, right? Haha
So ok go back studying............and if you read this you better study!
posted at [18:59]
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I don't know how i feel
Hmmm? Should i feel happy after the 5 tests are over? Logically i should, but i don't. And i begin to read this book that is supposed to...nah i won't reveal it to you but i hope it will change me to a better person.
I am glad that 0716 is studying very hard now. Hopefully no one in my class will be retained. Yesterday i forgot to take my TYS and i don't know...heard from some joker you can take TYS on Saturday 9am. Today when i went there, the room is locked, no sign of TYS and when i contacted Ms Choong, she said there is no such thing as collecting your bio TYS on Saturday. Gosh...
Studying alone can be a good thing and a bad thing. The good thing is no one ask you question and you can concentrate but the bad thing is that you will feel lonely. Then when you want to ask question, you got to mark it and ask teacher later. But still...i prefer studying alone...haha! More productive in my opinion unless you need some motivation to study.
Talking about motivation...don't know. It seems easy to be motivated and yet hard to do. Doing work all the time seems...hmmm? How should i say it...monotonous? repeatitive? Something like that. Please get these promo and A level chinese over and i will be a happy man!
(just my opinion). I think the class is treating someone in the class rather badly although he may not be nice and all those things. Although he may be bad in one way or another, there could be other reasons why he is like that. Maybe the way how he is exposed to environment cause him to be like that or maybe there is some difficulty that we all don't know that made him unable to change the way we want him to be. We don't know. Even if he is really really that bad as what many of you have said, i think he did not deserve the treatment we are giving him right now because imagine if you're in his position, would you like to be treated in that way?
So what i think is...if the class don't like him, just stay away from him. Please do not make his life miserable because it is not his fault that he existed here. But if you chose to ignore this, so be it. I am just stating my opinions. No offense.
And Amelia, i take back what i say that time when we are in atrium. Treat it like i never say anything ok? Haha! And i don't know why somehow i can fit into the class better. Must thank someone in the class for making me this way haha but i won't say the name hahaha! DJ... go and pass your pull up damn it. I can improve from 1 to 7 so can you! We are from Marists! Go with Marist spirit!
Teachers day are coming. Again i face this dilema. How can i express my gratitude to my tutors? Zzzz....i am not good in expressing myself but i think the gifts i can give them is my work that they are supposed to mark. Mrs So has been hardworking lately i really appreciate her. Next target is Mr Haniss and Mrs Boo... Wahahahaha!!! Should thank me for giving them such a nice present (really sorry Mr Haniss because of me you never had your lunch...really sorry)
Ok better go back studying. JIA YOU EVERYONE!
posted at [19:21]
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Wednesday, 15 August 2007
Wednesaday...so so so tired
Today i am going to collapse soon. Today NAPFA, my running i got a D. Crap and my standing broad jump get a B because my legs are wobbly after the run...oh man. I wanna retry standing broad jump again!!
Today chem, goodbye my love. Timewise, i feel that there is not enmough time to complete it. The pressure to finish the paper is so great that i even forgot some facts. Haiz...
And today i stayed back to study but was simply too tired. But at least i memorise the 2nd time for my cell divion notes, although i am left with a few more pages.
Next week is a killer. Jeremy already said, "Ok...tell me a quick way to die. I mean oh please, Maths, GP, Chem SPA, Econs, Bio test. Good luck everyone surviving this barrier. And worse, i am nominated to make an announcement on stage soon because i laugh too loudly...Great, i am famous for 1 min at least.
posted at [21:59]
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Let's add fuel for myself ok?
CHIONG ARGHHH!!! In the name of promotional exam + A level Chinese exam + PW work + SPA, i will work hard and not slack already.
And please, i will make sure i put my self in a "haber process" where i will be super compressed so don't say "don't overstress yourself" As long as i don't break i will continue being pressureised until this hell days are over!!!
WAHAHAHA.... motivation level regained + additional exp...blablabla....ah just being random.
I will vow that:
I will give teachers hell time these days.
I will not let them rest
I will let them mark my work till they drop
I will make sure they got fed up with me
And i will make sure that they will pray for promo to be over soon
Provided...They are free to mark my work and consultation hehe...see a good, "considerate boy" wahaha
Ok let's start ripping the teachers
posted at [09:11]
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